A new year means a clean slate, a chapter waiting to be written; this is how I’m feeling right now on the first official work day of this new year. I’ve got a confession about my goals for the new year. The biggest goal I have is to do what I’ve always said I want to do.

First here’s a wee story. I booked a strategy session with an excellent business coach named Shawn Driscoll. (That’s not an affiliate link) My goal was to gain some clarity around what I wanted to do with my business in 2010. Was it more coaching in the weight loss area? Did I want to run more teleseminars around the Mind and Body Tune Up concept? Speak more? And what was my core message? Anyone who stops by this blog knows it’s more midlife health and life information presented in encyclopedia format than a targeted, you-come-here-for-one-thing kind of blog. That’s not a bad thing but I don’t reach as many people as I’d like to because of that.

I expected some of what she and I discovered–such as getting more focused, offering something more compelling than tune up tips to expand my tribe, honing my message, etc. What I was a bit surprised about–but shouldn’t have been cause I’ve known this on some level for a long time–was that I don’t really want to do some of what I’m spending my time doing. I want to be on the stage motivating women to live fully expressed which often begins by helping them do the lifestyle stuff well so they feel up to their dreams.

If I’m not living fully expressed, how in the name of midlife can I inspire others to that end? What’s been holding me back? The fear of being bad at it, of not knowing how much it will take to get as good as I need to be–in other words, fear, fear, and fear.

The profound sadness that I felt knowing I was denying my own dream because I couldn’t see how I’d ever get there was the most surprising thing of all. And it kicked my butt. So did my mastermind group and I know they’ll hunt me down if I try to wiggle out of at least going for this in the biggest way possible.

Now you can hold my feet to the proverbial fire too. I’m outing myself as having played small, hidden my talents, and used all sorts of busy work to keep me from doing the thing I fear and long to do the most–living fully expressed which includes changing people’s lives, not just feeding them information.

To help me stick to what I’ve decided I must do I’ve hired a coach. It’s the only way I can be sure of playing full out and doing it with some direction. If you don’t know where to begin, find someone who has done what you want to do to whether it’s lifestyle change, personal growth, or starting a business.

What’s going to make your 2010 special, different, magnificent and delicious? Join me in making a public commitment by leaving your answer in a comment. Let’s all hold each other to the realization of our dreams. It’s what living midlife with a vengeance is really all about.